Hello Wendy, Thank you so much for your kind words. Yes, the 'swim' was riveting, comical, and a teaching moment. I look forward to many more. I appreciate your time to read this. with love, Prajna
Hello Jess, I miss you. Thank you for reading and sharing. I am curious and would love to hear more if you feel like sharing. much love to you, sister.
I resonate with that blissful first experience of what you call honeymoon motherhood. I felt so similar to how you described your experience. I can feel the wild, blissful, grounded, and ancient moments in my bones. Then, losing that feeling as additional babies came along. This can't even compare to your experience with Abby and Libby, yet my empathic heart is with you as you remember my own experience separating from that honeymoon of motherhood. For me, it wasn't the traumatic birth of baby #2. Instead, it was baby #2 being incredibly needy, followed by losing my dad, and then shortly thereafter having twins. Thanks for sharing the stories of your daughters with us. xoxo
I hear you Erika. I felt the impulse to center my daughter I write about her twin sisters so much. Thank you. If you write one, please tag me so I don't miss it, even a note is good if you want. with love, P
"Shamanic and Indigenous traditions share the idea that multiple generations of ancestors—especially mothers—impact the present generation."
I've had this experience, too, Prajna, but in a different context. I experienced through a family constellation--based on traditions of the Zulu in Africa and adapted by a German missionary then working in S. Africa, Bert Hellinger who, when he returned to Germany just after WWII realized that this powerful technique of healing through the ancestors could help his own people and others in the West begin to recover from the horrors of the Holocaust and, now, applied more broadly to heal generational trauma.
The healing session I experienced tapping into 7 generations of mothers is something I will write more about in coming weeks in my Releasing Memory; suffice it to say it provided a powerful affirmation for the ancestor memoir I am working on about an experience I received from my grandmother.
Hello Robin, This is exciting to hear. I hope you will tag me when you publish — this is dear to my heart and I would not want to miss it. I am told in my retreats that my work appears to flow like family constellations, but I have not been trained in that way. I believe that when we touch into our ancestors we are meeting our ancestral soul of commonalities.
Thank you for your friendship and reading. I appreciate you. with love, Prajna
Hello Kelly, I am so glad. Thank you for your kind words and friendship. Did you see that I linked to your post? I wonder if it showed up for you. Thx for reading!!! with love, P
Sometimes, when I read your words, my own words leave me. Only feelings remain. Beautiful, shimmering, iridescent feelings swirling from my head to my heart. Thank you for your wisdom and sharing. ❤️
This touches me and makes me proud to express myself freely here on the page and to know that you shimmer with iridescent feelings swirling from my head to my heart.
Hello Nancy, Thank you for reading and your generosity to me and my girls we love you. Yes, to expressing and celebrating our unashamed natural power. I cherish your friendship and poetry. with love, Prajna and the women here that love you as well.
Yes, the slow, soft, sensuous arrival — lately it feels - all it needs is our generous erotic attention to homing—including every bit backward and forward. Thank you for your kind words, sister.
How wonderful to be so connected to spiritual women who through generations have instilled their wisdom into the women born of them and from them. You are blessed to now be among those spirits. I love that you are chosen to carry on that wisdom. Your ode to Autumn is stunning. Surrounded by love for and from your amazing daughters gives you an aura that reaches mothers without those connections, moms like me. Your vitality to live life to its fullest is an inspiration to us all. Thank you for sharing you and your family with the rest of us. ❤️🌼
This is such a warm, honest, loving tribute to Autumn, to you and to the Mother Lode. The way you weave your hearts and story together through the beauty of your words, inspires.
So much beauty here in your post, Prajna. Loved the video! I got to see the whole event. Before I only saw the pic after the waves. And an awesome loving tribute to your daughter, Autumn. I love her name, BTW. Oh and love the Guest House by Rumi, one of my favs by him, but OMG that final poem, WOW. "it is here in my pungent folds you will find your home Nestle close listen for the pulse of molten fire that is my passion for you!" WOWser!
I felt Autumn’s authentic, wise presence in every word as you described her. And I felt what a beautiful karmic and mutually supportive bond you both have with each other. To embody through your womb as she has, it’s no wonder she carries so much of your wisdom in addition to her own. So much love in your tribute. Of course I feel acutely this disruption of trauma when Autumn was just a toddler. No need to say more here, just that there is so much complexity … And somehow I have the sense that the four of you girls are perfect and powerful and destined for each other.
Also, it’s such an awesome journey she’s had through social work and all that she’s doing now. And I love the story of how she was voted to be president because she’s so fair. 🤪Such a good reflection on her, but also such a good reflection on you as her parent!
Also, I’m fascinated by the seven generations which I’ve only ever heard from family constellation work, so interesting to note that it is part of indigenous traditions - maybe that’s where Hellinger found it who knows.
Would love to hear more of your growing up story. Much love to you all. ❤️❤️
Awww Michelle thank you so much. I meant to tell you that I listen to your audio on shame, and I never got to respond to it.
I have to get over there and do that. It was very well done. You also have an excellent speaking voice.
Easy to listen to
My growing up story oh boy
That would be a doozy
Seven generations forward and backward is very indigenous and I think it is indigenous to all of us deep in our soul. We have this familiarity with each other. At least I feel that.
Thank you for your kindness and support Mother To Mother .
Such a beautiful post in tribute to Autumn. Resilience all around, and resilience can be a beautiful thing. Thank you for the mention. Hope you all have a peaceful week. Loved seeing the "high knees" clip.
Yes, I agree that resilience can be a beautiful thing and to be able to with Stan challenge and have strength is necessary, but on the other side, what I was trying to point out was permission to feel, receive reach out and ask for help which can be distorted when the expectation is so strong
That was a mouthful. Thank you so much for reading and for your collaboration.
What a beautiful tribute and honoring of your daughter Autumn, of your motherhood, of earth and sky. The edges of all these things bleed together in unfathomable beauty on the page. Thank you.
How your essay inspired: If I stand in the center of my yard, close my eyes and stretch out my arms, I imagine the ancestral matriarchy standing behind me. First my mother, a woman who raised me alone, giving me a great sense of independence; then my grandmother Julia, who taught me to pray in her vegetable garden, pray with my knees on the earth and my hands in the soil; great grandmother Eva, who was in spirit long before I was born, the admired matriarch who made it across the Ocean from Ukraine, across the country and settled in Colorado with her growing family. After Eva, I don't know the faces, just the energy of all the women, all those mothers who paved a way and paid a price.
They are with me. They are in me. How did you discover the light in an otherwise dark cave? How did the water of rivers, oceans and streams come to sing to you? How is it that you know the whisperings of the forest around you and how to make medicine from that? These are things that I ask of them and they ask of me. This is my thanksgiving. I am the last in the line of these women -- there are no children in my life, but the blessings of many nieces who sometimes think I'm the cool aunt. The blessings of young women who I tuck into the folds of my heart by offering support, encouragement and open-hearted acceptance. There is no Autumn for me who will carry on the work, but still I am thankful for the different path that my mothering energy took -- a bittersweet recognition of life not always turning out like you'd planned, but tinged with grace and gratitude nonetheless.
The stories you tell and the way in which you tell them inspire readers like me to look deeper, contemplate more, to find my stories of how I'm woven into this world.
Thank you for the shout out, Prajna. I cherish our connection. May you, Autumn, Libby, Abby and the sweet pup celebrate a happy Thanksgiving. You are in my heart. ~stephanie
Thank you so much for your beautiful words and blessings. I love that you took this out in your backyard to receive lineage of mothers. It’s wonderful that you know so much about them and that you are in communion with them on a regular basis.
I’m sure you are a cool aunt.
I look forward to connecting more with you and have a beautiful holiday with whoever you choose to call family, Friend, land of infinite beings…
The video of you jumping into the waves is exhilarating, Prajna.
What a wonderful tribute to your daughter, Autumn, and to your own resilience and joy in life. An uplifting read.
Hello Wendy, Thank you so much for your kind words. Yes, the 'swim' was riveting, comical, and a teaching moment. I look forward to many more. I appreciate your time to read this. with love, Prajna
What a beautiful ode to Autumn! Thank you for sharing your experience. Many parts of it resonate with my experiences.
Hello Jess, I miss you. Thank you for reading and sharing. I am curious and would love to hear more if you feel like sharing. much love to you, sister.
I just saw this note. I will circle back & share. I miss you!
I would love an update from you Jess. Solidarity sister.
I resonate with that blissful first experience of what you call honeymoon motherhood. I felt so similar to how you described your experience. I can feel the wild, blissful, grounded, and ancient moments in my bones. Then, losing that feeling as additional babies came along. This can't even compare to your experience with Abby and Libby, yet my empathic heart is with you as you remember my own experience separating from that honeymoon of motherhood. For me, it wasn't the traumatic birth of baby #2. Instead, it was baby #2 being incredibly needy, followed by losing my dad, and then shortly thereafter having twins. Thanks for sharing the stories of your daughters with us. xoxo
Thank you!
Hello Erika, Thank you so much for reading. I appreciate you. Was there anything in particular that you connected with. with love, Prajna
Appreciated
I love my daughter
I just feel this beautiful tribute to daughter , mother and the ineffable
I hear you Erika. I felt the impulse to center my daughter I write about her twin sisters so much. Thank you. If you write one, please tag me so I don't miss it, even a note is good if you want. with love, P
"Shamanic and Indigenous traditions share the idea that multiple generations of ancestors—especially mothers—impact the present generation."
I've had this experience, too, Prajna, but in a different context. I experienced through a family constellation--based on traditions of the Zulu in Africa and adapted by a German missionary then working in S. Africa, Bert Hellinger who, when he returned to Germany just after WWII realized that this powerful technique of healing through the ancestors could help his own people and others in the West begin to recover from the horrors of the Holocaust and, now, applied more broadly to heal generational trauma.
The healing session I experienced tapping into 7 generations of mothers is something I will write more about in coming weeks in my Releasing Memory; suffice it to say it provided a powerful affirmation for the ancestor memoir I am working on about an experience I received from my grandmother.
Beautiful, loving energies.
Thanks for prompting me to tell this story soon!
Hello Robin, This is exciting to hear. I hope you will tag me when you publish — this is dear to my heart and I would not want to miss it. I am told in my retreats that my work appears to flow like family constellations, but I have not been trained in that way. I believe that when we touch into our ancestors we are meeting our ancestral soul of commonalities.
Thank you for your friendship and reading. I appreciate you. with love, Prajna
Thank you Prajna! I enjoyed this intro to Autumn very much. 🫶
Hello Kelly, I am so glad. Thank you for your kind words and friendship. Did you see that I linked to your post? I wonder if it showed up for you. Thx for reading!!! with love, P
I did! Appreciate it!
Oh, I am so glad. Not sure how this works anymore.
Sometimes, when I read your words, my own words leave me. Only feelings remain. Beautiful, shimmering, iridescent feelings swirling from my head to my heart. Thank you for your wisdom and sharing. ❤️
This touches me and makes me proud to express myself freely here on the page and to know that you shimmer with iridescent feelings swirling from my head to my heart.
Thank you so much sister.
Happy Birthday to Autumn!
And thanks for sharing your heartful, brave wisdom, Prajna.
There’s always been a call in me to find my own ground, while the lure of losing myself in transcendance to avoid facing my pain was strong.
Thanks for sharing the Gaia poem, an expression of that deep call.
I cheer us all on as we find our way and express and celebrate our unashamed natural power.
Love you,
Nancy
Hello Nancy, Thank you for reading and your generosity to me and my girls we love you. Yes, to expressing and celebrating our unashamed natural power. I cherish your friendship and poetry. with love, Prajna and the women here that love you as well.
Beautiful honoring of Autumn with lots of wisdom hard earned wisdom sprinkled throughout.
Truly the “arrival” is most difficult. ❤️❤️
Yes, the slow, soft, sensuous arrival — lately it feels - all it needs is our generous erotic attention to homing—including every bit backward and forward. Thank you for your kind words, sister.
Hmmmmm! Yes! “SOFT” is the word. 🌹
Yes not to be confused with silent — I like to make noise — yummy delicious noises that Libby taught me. A woman who savors life.
How wonderful to be so connected to spiritual women who through generations have instilled their wisdom into the women born of them and from them. You are blessed to now be among those spirits. I love that you are chosen to carry on that wisdom. Your ode to Autumn is stunning. Surrounded by love for and from your amazing daughters gives you an aura that reaches mothers without those connections, moms like me. Your vitality to live life to its fullest is an inspiration to us all. Thank you for sharing you and your family with the rest of us. ❤️🌼
Hello Kathy, you are always so generous and thoughtful. Your words lift me-thank you so much.
With love 💕 p
Beautiful! Happy Birthday Autumn.
Thank you Rhaine for your kindness and reading. 💚
This is such a warm, honest, loving tribute to Autumn, to you and to the Mother Lode. The way you weave your hearts and story together through the beauty of your words, inspires.
Awww thank you for reading and these kind words. I appreciate you Paulette
🌹💙🌹
So much beauty here in your post, Prajna. Loved the video! I got to see the whole event. Before I only saw the pic after the waves. And an awesome loving tribute to your daughter, Autumn. I love her name, BTW. Oh and love the Guest House by Rumi, one of my favs by him, but OMG that final poem, WOW. "it is here in my pungent folds you will find your home Nestle close listen for the pulse of molten fire that is my passion for you!" WOWser!
Hi Julie, thank you for reading and for your kind words. Yes Autumn is awesome. Rumi ♥️
And my friend’s poem. Nancy is remarkable. I am nudging her to publish more.
Thank you again 🌹
Love this!!!
Thank you so much for reading michelle.
I felt Autumn’s authentic, wise presence in every word as you described her. And I felt what a beautiful karmic and mutually supportive bond you both have with each other. To embody through your womb as she has, it’s no wonder she carries so much of your wisdom in addition to her own. So much love in your tribute. Of course I feel acutely this disruption of trauma when Autumn was just a toddler. No need to say more here, just that there is so much complexity … And somehow I have the sense that the four of you girls are perfect and powerful and destined for each other.
Also, it’s such an awesome journey she’s had through social work and all that she’s doing now. And I love the story of how she was voted to be president because she’s so fair. 🤪Such a good reflection on her, but also such a good reflection on you as her parent!
Also, I’m fascinated by the seven generations which I’ve only ever heard from family constellation work, so interesting to note that it is part of indigenous traditions - maybe that’s where Hellinger found it who knows.
Would love to hear more of your growing up story. Much love to you all. ❤️❤️
Awww Michelle thank you so much. I meant to tell you that I listen to your audio on shame, and I never got to respond to it.
I have to get over there and do that. It was very well done. You also have an excellent speaking voice.
Easy to listen to
My growing up story oh boy
That would be a doozy
Seven generations forward and backward is very indigenous and I think it is indigenous to all of us deep in our soul. We have this familiarity with each other. At least I feel that.
Thank you for your kindness and support Mother To Mother .
💙🌹💙
Aww thank you for your kind words. I’ve been so busy I haven’t been on here much lately but I’m going to start writing again soon.
I always look forward to your writing. 🌹
Such a beautiful post in tribute to Autumn. Resilience all around, and resilience can be a beautiful thing. Thank you for the mention. Hope you all have a peaceful week. Loved seeing the "high knees" clip.
Thank you. Amy.
Yes, I agree that resilience can be a beautiful thing and to be able to with Stan challenge and have strength is necessary, but on the other side, what I was trying to point out was permission to feel, receive reach out and ask for help which can be distorted when the expectation is so strong
That was a mouthful. Thank you so much for reading and for your collaboration.
What a beautiful tribute and honoring of your daughter Autumn, of your motherhood, of earth and sky. The edges of all these things bleed together in unfathomable beauty on the page. Thank you.
How your essay inspired: If I stand in the center of my yard, close my eyes and stretch out my arms, I imagine the ancestral matriarchy standing behind me. First my mother, a woman who raised me alone, giving me a great sense of independence; then my grandmother Julia, who taught me to pray in her vegetable garden, pray with my knees on the earth and my hands in the soil; great grandmother Eva, who was in spirit long before I was born, the admired matriarch who made it across the Ocean from Ukraine, across the country and settled in Colorado with her growing family. After Eva, I don't know the faces, just the energy of all the women, all those mothers who paved a way and paid a price.
They are with me. They are in me. How did you discover the light in an otherwise dark cave? How did the water of rivers, oceans and streams come to sing to you? How is it that you know the whisperings of the forest around you and how to make medicine from that? These are things that I ask of them and they ask of me. This is my thanksgiving. I am the last in the line of these women -- there are no children in my life, but the blessings of many nieces who sometimes think I'm the cool aunt. The blessings of young women who I tuck into the folds of my heart by offering support, encouragement and open-hearted acceptance. There is no Autumn for me who will carry on the work, but still I am thankful for the different path that my mothering energy took -- a bittersweet recognition of life not always turning out like you'd planned, but tinged with grace and gratitude nonetheless.
The stories you tell and the way in which you tell them inspire readers like me to look deeper, contemplate more, to find my stories of how I'm woven into this world.
Thank you for the shout out, Prajna. I cherish our connection. May you, Autumn, Libby, Abby and the sweet pup celebrate a happy Thanksgiving. You are in my heart. ~stephanie
Hi Stephanie
Thank you so much for your beautiful words and blessings. I love that you took this out in your backyard to receive lineage of mothers. It’s wonderful that you know so much about them and that you are in communion with them on a regular basis.
I’m sure you are a cool aunt.
I look forward to connecting more with you and have a beautiful holiday with whoever you choose to call family, Friend, land of infinite beings…